...but you can't help it.

Tonight i was talking on AIM (yes, instead of doing homework - I have a math test and these journal entries due tomorrow) and one of my freshman friends IMed me. I haven't talked to him for a while, so I was surprised when the window popped up and I saw his screenname. This is some of the stuff we talked about...

(For privacy, I didn't use our real screennames)

EL: this sucks
EL: everyone is leaving
EL: this year was by far the best ever
KG: yeah
EL: no more ghost stories
KG: nah we'll come to visit
EL: but how
EL: you'd be in college
EL: and i like being the new person making friends with older people
EL: u guys are awesome
EL: it's too bad you're leaving already
EL: right now to be honest
EL: i might sound like a loser but i feel like this year was the best ever at least first semester i had so much fun because of the friends i made and i don't want to see that go
EL: it's hitting me pretty hard
KG: you're telling me
EL: like i never would have suspected it
KG: yeah its coming down to the last of everything
EL: idk i guess i just loved this year so much i don't wanna see it go
EL: but if i were u i'd be excited
EL: cuz yur going to new school
EL: new friends
KG: thats what so scary though
KG: everything new
EL: but it'll be exciting at least
EL: and even when u go away...we're still back here waiting for u to visit
KG: thats another thing though
KG: its just a visit
KG: it wont ever be the same like "hey lets go out tonight"
EL: actually yea thats really true i see it happening with my brother and sister
EL: but it's not like you're leaving for good
KG: yeah
KG: i noticed though that with my friends that left last year, lots of them drifted
EL: i can predict the future
EL: after my sophmore year
EL: u guys will begin to "drift away" from us more and more
KG: guarantee there will be some drift with everyone, but i think theres just a few in every grade i know ill keep an eye out for
EL: but there's not much to talk about
EL: kinda know waht i mean??
KG: yeah
KG: after the "so whats new in your life?" theres not much to talk about
KG: but with good friends you always find something
EL: but it's sad to see friendship slowly start to go away
EL: but u can't help it

This boy is like my baby. Seriously, I'd protect him like my own brother (maybe even more considering my brother and I don't really talk). Anyway, after he told me he doesn't want this school year to end and for us to go away, I realized that I'll have to leave him and everyone else back home. Even the other graduating seniors will be left in the past. There's no escaping it and I'm not ready.